Meet My Little Girl, Lily

Weighing in at 8lbs 10oz, Lily was born December 7th at 8:49 pm

 Her birth story...

Dirty

 

I haven't left my house or answered my phone in THREE DAYS because I know I'll bite the head off the first person I come in contact with. I think it has a lot to do with my mother-in-law, she's being really pushy about wanting to be in the delivery room and wants a good seat for the crowning. I told her that I'm super uncomfortable with ANYONE being "down there" (even my man meat has been banned from standing past my hips) but she wont let up! Every time she calls the house she wants to talk about my vagina, and I'm just so weirded out by it. I don't ask how her lady bits are doing every time she calls, why should it be any different for me?

I do love this woman, but I'm a huge introvert and would never in my wildest DREAMS ask (or even want) to be in full view of someones vagina while they go through such an intimate time. It just feels so personal to me. If there wasn't a baby coming out of there I wouldn't show it to her, I just feel like my girl parts are for her son only and I never thought I would have to fight to keep his MOTHER from wanting to see them.

I feel so yucky about this whole thing. 

Beautiful Day

We spent the day at the beach yesterday. It was SUPER cold in town but I really wanted to take a walk on the coast so Ron agreed to take me anyhow. We bundled up in sweatshirts and mittens but when we got out to the beach it was sunny and beautiful! I couldn't believe it! We had such a wonderful day together. I wish this baby would hurry up and come so Ron can stay home with me. I miss him so badly when he's at work. I know he misses me too because he calls me every other hour to let me know. He's so silly. I love him.

One of those nights...

I woke up about a dozen times last night with this sense of urgency. Like I was missing something and needed to get out of bed A.S.A.P.

Every time I'd wake up I'd kind of lunge forward and gasp. It was the craziest thing! I haven't got any place to be today, the house is for the most part clean, the nursery is ready, my hospital bags are packed, the animals were all sound asleep in their terrariums/beds. WTF!

Ron jumped a few times and asked if the baby was coming. Poor guy. He had a late night of video games. I don't think he got much sleep at all thanks to me. : (

I'll leave you with some picture I took when I was feeling pretty the other day.

Babyshower!

Yesterday we had our second baby shower, this one was just for our close friends. As usual, plenty of pictures!

Down one Holiday, two more to go!

Sorry I haven't been around much, I've been crazy busy. It seems like I have some kind of appointment EVERYDAY, on top of work and trying to get my house ready for the baby life has been NUTSO!

Anyway, I've got a whole mess of pictures from Halloween.

Halloween, I started off the day at work, and was a Bumblebee with my mom, Viz and some of our students

Week 34

 

Little "L" now weighs somewhere between 4 3/4 and 5 pounds (like your average cantaloupe) and is almost 18 inches long. Her fat layers — which will help regulate her body temperature once she's born — are filling her out, making her rounder. Her skin is also smoother than ever. Her central nervous system is maturing and her lungs are continuing to mature as well. 

Update on me:

• I've been feeling very energetic and "nesty" in the mornings, and by the evenings completely exhausted and in need of laying down.
• I've been getting a lot of cleaning/organization type household stuff done.
• I am having upper abdominal tension, stretching and rib pain, but I think I'm just learning to cope with it.
• I noticed my first stretch mark on my tummy yesterday and it's getting bigger. eek.
• I am getting so excited to hold my baby!!!

BELLY!


it feels so big, like a pumpkin under my skin.

This is me @ 33 weeks!

 

my hairs were looking pretty today

the belly


other side of the belly

enjoying the shade at the dog park


Belly!!!


all smiles


you can see my peanut in the background


Lily was kicking








my hands don't make very good hearts : \






and my favorite

3D-4D ultrasound

I just got back from my 3D-4D ultrasound! It was even more wonderful than I could have ever dreamed it would be! Ron's Mom, step mom, and my mom and dad were there with us. They put us in this cute little room with two couches, a plush arm chair for Ron, a bed for me, and a HUGE tv. They had these sweet nursery rhymes playing, and everything was MAGICAL! Lily was very active at first and kept turning away from the camera. She does that when we're trying to get a heartbeat too, she'll swim away every time we find her. She's not ever born yet and already playing games with us! FINALLY, during the last three minutes or so, she turned STUCK HER TONGUE OUT and struck several poses. We have a dvd of it, but couldn't get any good stills of her with her tongue out.

After it was over, the technician said that she really enjoyed working with us, and asked if we could come back in about two weeks and do the 3D-4D ultrasound AGAIN for some new techs in training. FOR FREE! I was very happy to volunteer! I can't wait to see our little monster again and get MORE pictures. Did I mention they were going to do it FOR FREE! WOW!

My mom was joking as we were leaving the place that the baby isn't even born yet and she's already getting modeling gigs. hehehehe.

Ron was stoked!


getting gooed up. It was WARM! The goo at my doctors office is always freezing cold!


looking at our pictures


SOooo happy!

waaah

I want my body back! I used to think I was so nasty, so fat and gross. I wish I could go back in time and slap myself every time I called myself "fat".

I love my pregnant body, I'm just scared about what it's going to look like after my little bundle of joy comes out.


poo.

One word...

Lasagna.


I want some.

HAHAHAHA!!!!

I tricked the computer into turning on! Too bad I don't really have anything to write about.

Funny/Sad story tho, things were getting a little sexy this morning and Ron kind of freaked out on me "What about the baby! I don't want to poke her!" It was pretty much JUST like the scene in "knocked up" that made me giggle when I saw it because of how that will never happen to us because Ron is such a horn dog. BUT IT DID! Now he's at work and I'm left feeling a little un-pretty.  Are your men so wrapped up in the baby that they aren't interested in sex anymore? Don't get me wrong, I'm GLAD he's got baby on the brain, I'm just kind of shocked is all.

I had an appointment with W.I.C. yesterday and the gave me this super sweet "babies first year" calendar! It's got all these great little stickers to put on special days like all the firsts (word, step, smile, giggle, solid food, etc.), doctors appointments, holidays, etc. It's wicked cute, and I'm so excited for it to be December so I can start using it!

Paula (Ron's mom) called yesterday to ask us about our registry because Target is having a fat sale and she wanted to get us something nice while it was going on. Ron told her how to get to it from online, she said she found what she wanted and they hung up. I don't do surprises. That's probably my one glaring fault in life. If I know I'm going to get something/something is going to happen but don't know what it is I freak out! It will haunt me. I won't be able to get it off my mind, and the very thought of it will consume my entire day. So I peeked after Ron left. She's the only one who'd used our registry so far so it wasn't hard to find out what she got us. SHE GOT US THE CHERRY WOOD DRESSER WE WANTED! It was the most expensive item on our registry! It's fucking beautiful! I'm glowing just thinking about it. I can't wait to see it all set up in our nursery. I'm dieing to get in there and start working on that nursery! Eeeeep!

Whoa, I guess I did have shit to update about. It's funny how much babbling can be done when you put your mind to it! : )








p.s. when I got up and was doing my morning cocoa butter rub down I saw that I have a (very light) line going from my belly button down to my pubic bone. The internet says it's normal, something to do with pregnancy and will go away after the baby comes out. There is also an old wives tale saying that if it goes to the belly button it's a girl, if it goes to the breast it's a boy.

Jungle Theme

Strawberry smoothie = LOVE!

My mom has been spoiling the shit out of me while Ron has been away! Taking me out for smoothies, doing my laundry, buying all kinds of treasures for myself and the baby! I'm ALMOST sad that this weekend at mommy's is coming to an end. I am however SUPER stoked to pickup Ron from the airport today. I miss his face SOOOO bad!

To help pass the time, I've been painting some little 8"-10" canvases for our nursery. I figure It might help give my boyfriends brother that hint that I'm ready to get in the room he has been "living" in and he should start looking for a new place to dwell already. I wanted to paint the walls, but by the time we get Sean out of there the baby will probably be here already. I swear, he hasn't so much as left his room (other than to get a beer from the fridge) in over a month!!! He's not even working anymore, all he does is sit at home locked in my nursery playing world of warcraft! And I KNOW he's smoking pot in there (if not cigarettes as well)! I don't want my FUCKING NURSERY SMELLING LIKE AN ASH TRAY! Arrrrgh!!!

...I kind of just surprised myself. I had no idea I was so angry about this. eeep!

On a happier note, here's some pictures of the paintings I have done so far.

EXHIBIT A. The dining room table.

Who REALLY uses their dining room table for sit down dinners anyway? NOT US! We couldn't if we wanted. hehehehe. Maybe by Thanksgiving I will see the surface again?

These are some of the original ideas for baby jungle animal designs. I'm painting a series of 9 canvasses for the walls of the nursery. I'm thinking about using them as a makeshift border around the room.

Here are some that are just about done now...

I'm pretty happy with them so far. Really tho, they just make me even more "excited" about getting in that room and nesting! I want in soooo bad!!!

It's a...

Now they can't say 100% because with girl parts all it takes is a hiding penis to make it a boy! But they said it looked pretty girl like to them, and we thought so too. We're going to get a 3D/4D ultrasound just to make sure, but we're STOKED! Baby Lily is on her way, and we love her to bits!!!

Also, I was feeling pretty today, so I took some pictures.



One of my new tops my mommy bought me yesterday




Cute little jacket

Clotes

My mommy took me maternity clothes shopping today! I'll have to post pictures when I'm not feeling so lazy. I'm working for her at school up until I give birth, and she said me looking like I was wearing PJs everyday wasn't cutting it. : ) She got me 3 tops (two of which came with tanks tops also), a pair of pants, a sweater, and a coat! I love them all to bits! I feel so much better wearing them rather than too tight tee shirts with dance pants!

Tomorrow is the BIG ultra sound! 9:30am!  I'm so excited! My hormones were RAGING last night, and I spent a good couple hours crying in bed. I was so worried that I'm not going to be a good mommy, and that I don't deserve this baby. It almost killed my excitement about the ultrasound, but now that I've had some rest I feels much better about it. It's crazy how cranky I get when I'm tired!

Nesting

I got hit with the nesting bug this weekend! It started out as just doing the dishes (normal), that turned into taking EVERYTHING out of my cabinets and washing everything, then rearranging them all. I tore apart my refrigerator, scrubbed out every compartment and rearranged all of my condiments by expiration dates. THEN I got on my hands and knees, scrubbed the floor, then the walls, then THE CEILING!!! I spent 8 hours on the kitchen, 11 on the living areas, and a whole day on our bedroom. I was able to get Ron to clean the bathroom (kind of) because our bathroom has no ventilation so he was worried about the baby breathing in all the chemicals. It's not clean to my standards, but it's better than it was. Now if only I could get his brother out of our house so I could start on the nursery. I'm just DYING to get my hands on that room!

Last night Ron went over to his friend Teddy's house to watch basketball, he wanted me to go with him but I really couldn't care less about basketball, and the walls in the living room were begging me to Mr. clean magic eraser them. As soon as he left I felt the baby kick REAL hard. I got so excited because I hadn't felt it move in a couple days, so I spent the rest of the time Ron was gone just lying on the couch holding my belly and feeling my baby move around. It is the most wonderful feeling in the world! When babe got home and I told him about all the movement he missed out on and he got pretty bummed, but later that night in bed while he was talking to my belly he was able to feel it kick pretty hard. He looked like he was going to cry! We're both so excited!

We get our BIG ultrasound on Wednesday! Myself and pretty much everyone close to me thinks it's going to be a girl. I took some silly "old wives tales" quiz online and it said we have a 83% chance of it being a girl. I think part of us (Ronand I) is hoping it's a girl because we're butting heads so hard on boys names. He's into the super crazy Irish names, and I'm just not. Ugh.

Any who, here's a pictures from a baseball game we went to recently, and a belly pic from today (23 weeks)

 

I think it looks like I have a big pumpkin or beach ball under my skin : )


Ron thinks it's beautiful.

Tingles

Last night I could feel little fingers (or toes?) running down my insides! I've never felt anything like that is my life! It freaked me out SO bad at first, but after it was over all I could think was how badly I wanted to feel it again! I love being able to feel my baby. I love knowing that it's still in there, growing into something so wonderful I can't even imagine! This is my child. This is my future.

it's all so unbelievable.

Bovine

Ron has been wanting to get his first tattoo and I keep joking that he should get a cow to represent how large I feel being pregnant. Well today I started lactating... TMI I know, but shit.

Pregnancy is a hell of a trip! : )

I can feel you kicking in there!

Today the baby kicked me so hard in the bladder I just about peed my pants!



...I think it's a girl

Oopsy Daisy

funny joke...

"Knock knock..."


"who's there?"












"I'm pregnant."

that's how I told babe... he didn't laugh tho. haha. I was just as surprised as he was when I found out, being on birth control I wasn't really expecting a baby.

Side note, the term "morning sickness" is a crock of shit! It's more like a perpetual hangover. This baby is going to be the death of me.

In all seriousness tho, we really couldn't be happier! I woke up this morning and babe was under the covers talking to my belly. Pretty much the cutest thing ever! Happy happy happy, joy joy joy! : )